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Boys don't cry

I can't imagine how a guy manages to keep his mouth shut while he's got a bunch of things to say in his head. While a woman can nag everything she wants to say, a guy can only nod or shook his head or even no response at all. Today was a roller coaster ride with him, and I saw him cry his heart out because of all the pressure he's been through. I didn't understand at first but when he started to let it all out I realized maybe I was adding up to the pressure he was feeling. 

There are things in life that we want but no matter how much we wanted it and no matter how hard we try just to achieve it sometimes it won't happen for some reasons. A lot would say maybe it's not for you, but I don't agree. Should be that it may be not for you for now, but later on when you will prove everyone including yourself on how much you deserve to have it sooner or later you'll have it. But it's easier said than done, I know. 

I realized now that I shouldn't be so hard on him. I know that he's doing the best that he can. I was looking at him while he was crying, I was so mad at myself. I was mad because I  wasn't able to read his mind, his feelings, his emotions. I 'm the only one he can open up to, and I wasn't able to let him to, I was just there nagging about how he's not doing enough, I did not think about what he's done already. That was an eye opener for me, to not be such a nagger anymore. I know it can't happen overnight, but I will try my very best to change that kind of attitude. Seeing him cry really tore my heart into pieces. I have to be there for him no matter what.

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