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In My Loneliness

I wonder what it would be like if I'm gone

Would I feel anything? nothing?

Would it be like floating around

In the middle of the ocean, silently crying.


I've been thinking a lot lately

Most about my regrets

I thought I didn't have any

It turned out plenty


I want to say sorry

My two innocent ones

I brought you in this misery

That is not what I want


Things look pretty in the outside

but my mind and my soul

Is a living hell I try to hide

It swallows me whole


They say to find that light

but all I see is blurred and faded

It's not that I've given up this fight

That's just me, I can't change it.


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