What's waiting for me?

I actually don't know where to start. I have so many things in mind right now but to sum it all up I just want change. Change in how I do and live my life.It might be just me, that I'm all exhausted and everything, that may be just it but when I come to think of it my life has been too stagnant for some time already. A long period of time I bet. I kind of want to add something new and exciting in my life but I don't know where to

actually start digging. It's a long a venue of life, I know. There's so much I think I can do but just can't.

I want to do something exceptional. I want to live with music. I want to be good in my craft. I wanna do something I am good at. I want to sing, I want to write songs, have my own concert take pictures, put up my own business, create something remarkable, influence people, be an example. I don't want to be someone people just look up to, I want more than that, something relevant. Thinking changing my course in life could be so hard. I wanna do something to make it happen, one step at a time, but doing that one little steps scares me. I'm afraid what people might think about me, afraid what mistakes I'd do, afraid that it's all just dreams that are meant to be in sleep and not in reality. I want to let people know what I know, feel what I feel and think what I think. Drive. Motivate. Push. Those are the things I feel I want so bad right now.

I guess I'm just gonna have to take a big leap to that. Conquering my fears and let go of what I feel. I know I can and I will, one day.

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sweet nothings

Nothing much special. I had to do a lot of things for today but we still managed to hang out at the end of the day. We don't have much time with me each other lately, we just see each other after work and drop me home. I really appreciate it when spends time with me even for just a while. That way I can see that he really wants to be around with me. Iced coffee and fries...I dunno what got into his mind. Not my idea of a combination.

In My Loneliness

I wonder what it would be like if I'm gone Would I feel anything? nothing? Would it be like floating around In the middle of the ocean, silently crying. I've been thinking a lot lately Most about my regrets I thought I didn't have any It turned out plenty I want to say sorry My two innocent ones I brought you in this misery That is not what I want Things look pretty in the outside but my mind and my soul Is a living hell I try to hide It swallows me whole They say to find that light but all I see is blurred and faded It's not that I've given up this fight That's just me, I can't change it.

Happy tree friends PIG OUT!

As usual every payday we always try to eat out for dinner and spend our money pigging out. *oink* As for this time we're on a tight budget since Christmas is fast approaching we still managed to pig out at McDonalds. Almost all the time we're here to eat. Since we prefer it than other fast food chains out there. Trying pose as Mr. Pogi. Hahaha.. courtesy of Jericho Rosales. He's got the mind of these girls LOL about it. This is me on a diet. What?? haha! No. Actually, I was already full. I had it with that day. Eating almost every hour of the day! *oink* And oh,yes! I bought these mini-fries. Cool isn't it?? I love it. It's a actually for my bag. I have with me the best fries and the best people in the world! COOL! xoxo -Angelie-

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