What's waiting for me?

I actually don't know where to start. I have so many things in mind right now but to sum it all up I just want change. Change in how I do and live my life.It might be just me, that I'm all exhausted and everything, that may be just it but when I come to think of it my life has been too stagnant for some time already. A long period of time I bet. I kind of want to add something new and exciting in my life but I don't know where to

actually start digging. It's a long a venue of life, I know. There's so much I think I can do but just can't.

I want to do something exceptional. I want to live with music. I want to be good in my craft. I wanna do something I am good at. I want to sing, I want to write songs, have my own concert take pictures, put up my own business, create something remarkable, influence people, be an example. I don't want to be someone people just look up to, I want more than that, something relevant. Thinking changing my course in life could be so hard. I wanna do something to make it happen, one step at a time, but doing that one little steps scares me. I'm afraid what people might think about me, afraid what mistakes I'd do, afraid that it's all just dreams that are meant to be in sleep and not in reality. I want to let people know what I know, feel what I feel and think what I think. Drive. Motivate. Push. Those are the things I feel I want so bad right now.

I guess I'm just gonna have to take a big leap to that. Conquering my fears and let go of what I feel. I know I can and I will, one day.

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sweet nothings

Nothing much special. I had to do a lot of things for today but we still managed to hang out at the end of the day. We don't have much time with me each other lately, we just see each other after work and drop me home. I really appreciate it when spends time with me even for just a while. That way I can see that he really wants to be around with me. Iced coffee and fries...I dunno what got into his mind. Not my idea of a combination.

Letting go

I've been staring at this blank page for a while already. It seems like I don't know where to start. I keep getting questions, why this and why that. Actually, I don't know what happened. I got confused on the way things are going. It's not the first time that I thought about breaking up, I've been trying to open the subject many times already but somehow he managed to talk me out of it. The past six years was a roller coaster ride. It was fun. We've had ups and downs like any relationship does but never did we go to bed without fixing any problem we've had. It was the best six years of my life. What I know is, when you're in a relationship this long, you have to always give more than what you always do. Sometimes, things get boring when you can't keep up with that scheme. I love him, I love our relationship, it means everything to me. But how can I keep on going when I know both of us cannot give anymore. Result is, we keep on disappoi

Happy tree friends PIG OUT!

As usual every payday we always try to eat out for dinner and spend our money pigging out. *oink* As for this time we're on a tight budget since Christmas is fast approaching we still managed to pig out at McDonalds. Almost all the time we're here to eat. Since we prefer it than other fast food chains out there. Trying pose as Mr. Pogi. Hahaha.. courtesy of Jericho Rosales. He's got the mind of these girls LOL about it. This is me on a diet. What?? haha! No. Actually, I was already full. I had it with that day. Eating almost every hour of the day! *oink* And oh,yes! I bought these mini-fries. Cool isn't it?? I love it. It's a actually for my bag. I have with me the best fries and the best people in the world! COOL! xoxo -Angelie-

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