What's waiting for me?

I actually don't know where to start. I have so many things in mind right now but to sum it all up I just want change. Change in how I do and live my life.It might be just me, that I'm all exhausted and everything, that may be just it but when I come to think of it my life has been too stagnant for some time already. A long period of time I bet. I kind of want to add something new and exciting in my life but I don't know where to

actually start digging. It's a long a venue of life, I know. There's so much I think I can do but just can't.

I want to do something exceptional. I want to live with music. I want to be good in my craft. I wanna do something I am good at. I want to sing, I want to write songs, have my own concert take pictures, put up my own business, create something remarkable, influence people, be an example. I don't want to be someone people just look up to, I want more than that, something relevant. Thinking changing my course in life could be so hard. I wanna do something to make it happen, one step at a time, but doing that one little steps scares me. I'm afraid what people might think about me, afraid what mistakes I'd do, afraid that it's all just dreams that are meant to be in sleep and not in reality. I want to let people know what I know, feel what I feel and think what I think. Drive. Motivate. Push. Those are the things I feel I want so bad right now.

I guess I'm just gonna have to take a big leap to that. Conquering my fears and let go of what I feel. I know I can and I will, one day.

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