I wonder what it would be like if I'm gone Would I feel anything? nothing? Would it be like floating around In the middle of the ocean, silently crying. I've been thinking a lot lately Most about my regrets I thought I didn't have any It turned out plenty I want to say sorry My two innocent ones I brought you in this misery That is not what I want Things look pretty in the outside but my mind and my soul Is a living hell I try to hide It swallows me whole They say to find that light but all I see is blurred and faded It's not that I've given up this fight That's just me, I can't change it.